Thursday, August 03, 2006

I reached home from school around 6.30pm.
It was quite late already so I quickly get changed into my running vest, feed the pup, and get ready to go out.
I went for a run and ran a distance of approx. 2.5km.
It took me 16 mins to complete the distance.
Then I walked briskly home straight after.
It was 7pm plus already by then.
My mind was almost blank on the way home.
So I recalled and hummed 2 full songs till I reached home.
I was not in the right mood, I know.
But, I guess the run numbed my mind from thinking too much for a while.
And thinking back, it's been a while since I went for a run by myself, alone.

I used to go for a long, serious run alone only when:
- competitions are around the corner,
- I want to maintain my stamina,
- I am addicted to running,
- I need to destress from work,
- Or I am not in the right mood.

So what do you think?

Maybe I am getting to do this more and more often?
If so then it will meant something.
I don't wanna think.
I don't meant I don't want to use my brain to think.
It's that I try to refrain those thoughts.
What I can do now is to do what's right.
And what is really right?
All i know is that I am never right.
Right?

I think I should take a step back.
No point making the move and mess things up further, right?
I can only hope for the better days.
Even if I didn't do enough, and supposed to make the move...
I guess for this time I shall remain stagnant.
You are not going through all this alone, you know?

If only you know.


@ 10:15 PM