Sunday, June 22, 2008

Okay. I've decided to stop M.I.A.-ing.

I've been so busy I don't know when to continue my diary.
Wouldn't it be cool to keep a handwritten diary eh?
Bee is keeping one which I have yet to read!

Well, my weekend was alright.
The last weekend I went for Vgo Mt. Faber Run 2008, alone early in the morning.
It was a 10km x-terrain run and I managed to complete it just below an hour.
I'm satisfied with my timing with all the up slopes and all.
My last P.B. timing was 50mins for 10k.
Next up would be 10km Shape Run.

Last, last (or last?) weekend I took a trip at the Southern Ridges with my colleagues, taking photos with Sony Alpha A350 and my Sony T100.
I also went trekking at Bt. Timah Hill one fine Sunday morning with colleagues when he didn't book out that weekend.
I have too many pics to upload now.

Then there was a beach babes and hunks event at Sentosa on one Saturday.
Then there was a long overdue post of Jess' 21st Bday celebration.
Happy entering 21st girl! :)
And all the continuous weekly cycling at ECP to Changi Beach Park and back.
I got a damn big bruise on my right thigh and am glad it's fading off already.

Explored a different side at Portsdown and had dinner at Colbar.
Went to Dempsey again and to that Ben & Jerry's for the 3rd time.
Had dinner at Ma Maison with him and ate Escargot(edible snail) for the first time.
Caught all the good shows like Kungfu Panda(twice!) and The Incredible Hulk.
Bought a new big bag, finally, from Agnes B. since there's 10% and my brown NUM bag for 2 years at least is deteriorating.

ETC ETC ETC.

Those mentioned above pretty much summed up what I've been doing the past weekends.
My weekdays are busy busy.
What's new, eh?

I just found out last Friday that my name under the co. organisation chart has changed to the new dept. that I'll be working for.
All the more I feel like I'm outta where I am.
Anyway, it's a sooner or later thing...

UPDATES!
Yes, I've been given a new job scope which I'll be working for another dept. too.
It's supposed to be 50-50 for now, makes me under 2 depts.
But am feeling the change, feel like I'm doing more work now of my new job scope, etc.
I understand everyone is under lotsa stress from everywhere, but I can't give up just like that.
I keep thinking why don't they just transfer me out totally.
And I think there should be a reason for that decision, decision of transferring me out bit by bit.

The mag is like a precious to me and very much a pride that my Senior passed on down to me with trust and confident, to continue producing an at least decent mag every month.
I really had to thank him for that, a lot.
It's a really great learning opportunity for me.

Now, thinking of passing it on and embark onto a more challenging scope, I feel the anxiety + excitement(to certain extent).
But most of all, I feel bu she de (can't bear to 'leave').
Whatever the next step will be, it's not mine to decide.
All I am hoping is to be able to be like my Senior, and to leave my precious in good hands and the great team it is now.
It's been like the longest relay and time to pass the baton on.
I should feel relief?
Yea, and I should trust my teammates to finish the race.

How does it feel when you're around to help but being treated like dirt?
Harsh, that is really harsh.
What I do, I do it for some reasons.
My chapters may not be perfect but at least I don't intend to wreck others.
I don't expect anyone to understand me all the time about what I am really going through, especially during the bad times when most of the time I scramble within me.

I have been going through some rough times with work and with many thoughts(negative ones) in my mind.
I've learned to control my emotion ever since the last time I blew my top at my boss.
I've learned to not do that again as it'll only seem unprofessional.
I'm glad I still have a Senior to turn to, my AD that is.

I'm also glad there are friends/colleagues around to keep me going, more positively.
I'm very glad I have him to listen to all my problems, maybe not all cos I hate to repeat myself with unhappy things or to dampen his mood with it. Haha.

Just gotta tell myself, it's okay, it's gonna be alright. :)

Positivity is a little thing that makes a big difference.

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To my pals:

Ah Boy, I miss you buddy and sorry to have gone missing for so long!
Guess you can tell I've been quite busy lately.
I'll fill you in soon, email you soon when I have the time.
I thought you cannot receive my SMS back to you lah, good thing you can. :)
You hang in there in Aussie, yea?
Mine here in S'pore no better also. Hehs.
It's all no fun without you!
Or at least not 101% fun without you!
It's also with you in our mind that keeps us making the effort to meet up and all, right girls?
Texting is expensive.
Email me anytime, long or short, I'll get back to you ASAP.
HUGS.

The rest of the girls, we're meeting soon.
Thanks to Zhi Bi for booking Mind Cafe eh. Haha.
I'll try to get off work early as possible since it's at 6pm!

Jess, congrats for entering the Uni!!!
What am I doing here, still slogging away!

Oh yea, work have been making me think of going back to school, or rather, upgrading my skills.
I feel like there's so much skills I haven't master.
Just when I feel like heading for a change, I have a new task to uptake. Tsk.
Studying again won't be anytime soon for me.
Meanwhile I just have to figure out what skill to pick up next time.
Yup.

Okay, no pics this time round.
Will update again!


@ 12:57 AM